Isn't it amazing how you can go in cycles with lack of trust in God? Recently my family has had a situation, with yet another reenlistment and extension denials that have troubled both my husband and I. On the eve of my husband going to school for work in another state he tells me that his re-enlistment and extension were both denied. His contract in the Marine Corp was going to end on Saturday, he was to fly out the following Monday and won't be here to see another package be submitted. This brought on full anxiety and worry attack. I felt myself being consumed with thoughts of what if and what next? I became physically ill in my stomach, immediately overwhelmed with a headache along with significant mood swings. The woman I am tried my hardest to keep a smile on face and not show it. I did not want my husband and children to see my anxiety. I fled to my room and prayed. I literally cried out to the Lord begging for answers, asking for his will to be done, begging for strength to serve and humbly follow his plan.
That night after the kids were all tucked in bed, my husband and I had time to sit down and talk, he shared his anxiety and stresses he had and how it's been taking a physical toll on him. My heart was instantly overwhelmed with excitement that he would share this (My husband is not one to worry!), and fear. If he's worried, I need to worry. As we lay there having our pillow talk, I felt this desire to pray together. I asked him if he would like to pray, there was a long silence he said yes! Again another long silence, yep you guessed it it's my cue to pray.
"Dear heavenly Father, King, Creator, Lord of all. We humbly fall before you and pray that you will forgive us for not coming to you sooner on this issue at hand. I pray Lord that your Will will be done, that you grant us peace to understand, peace from this anxiety. I pray that you will surround my husband with comfort in knowing who you are and that you are in control. Stand with us Lord in this battle that's going on inside us. Stand with us hold our hands and don't let go! Lord we need you, we need your Grace to get through this. Thank you for allowing us to see this is beyond our hands, thank you for giving us you, Amen."
I know I know at the time it sounded like all was well, I was able to do the right thing and give it to the Lord. That evening we went to sleep peacefully. We got up for church the next morning, and chaos was among us, fighting breaks out amongst the kids. Ugh!! We make it to church and walk through the door with heavy hearts. God knew what was on our hearts! God knew we needed to hear that sermon and be affirmed! I will attach it at the end because I know some readers could benefit to listen to it! I remember sitting there listening and glancing over at my husband thinking, this is what we needed to hear.
When we got home and had been spiritually fed, we didn't discuss what we just heard. We went on about our day. I get this call from my mom, " Are you busy? I want to include you in my bible study I think we both could use it." I said, "sure." I lock myself in our room, and we go through the study it's title "Overcoming worry" Philippians 4:4-7. You begin the study by drawing a heartbreaking it into 4 equal parts, then enter in your 4 significant stresses or anxiety issues. I'm sitting here thinking . "okay his is weird." So instead of boring you with all the details, I will highlight some key things that stuck out.
There are always going to be things that worry us or give us anxiety, Its easier said then done to give it up and Trust in he Lord. You can always find peace and affirmation in he Word of God, and through family and friends. As I said in he beginning, learning or growth comes in cycles do not be hard on yourself when you don't see any changes. God knows he is the Master of change!
Here is the attachment of the two sermons you should listen to if your going through something that has you worried or given you anxiety. The two titles are: "Strong enough for you biggest anxieties" and "Introduction to the Exodus"
http://www.kingschurch.us/media.php?pageID=24
Happy listening!
That night after the kids were all tucked in bed, my husband and I had time to sit down and talk, he shared his anxiety and stresses he had and how it's been taking a physical toll on him. My heart was instantly overwhelmed with excitement that he would share this (My husband is not one to worry!), and fear. If he's worried, I need to worry. As we lay there having our pillow talk, I felt this desire to pray together. I asked him if he would like to pray, there was a long silence he said yes! Again another long silence, yep you guessed it it's my cue to pray.
"Dear heavenly Father, King, Creator, Lord of all. We humbly fall before you and pray that you will forgive us for not coming to you sooner on this issue at hand. I pray Lord that your Will will be done, that you grant us peace to understand, peace from this anxiety. I pray that you will surround my husband with comfort in knowing who you are and that you are in control. Stand with us Lord in this battle that's going on inside us. Stand with us hold our hands and don't let go! Lord we need you, we need your Grace to get through this. Thank you for allowing us to see this is beyond our hands, thank you for giving us you, Amen."
I know I know at the time it sounded like all was well, I was able to do the right thing and give it to the Lord. That evening we went to sleep peacefully. We got up for church the next morning, and chaos was among us, fighting breaks out amongst the kids. Ugh!! We make it to church and walk through the door with heavy hearts. God knew what was on our hearts! God knew we needed to hear that sermon and be affirmed! I will attach it at the end because I know some readers could benefit to listen to it! I remember sitting there listening and glancing over at my husband thinking, this is what we needed to hear.
When we got home and had been spiritually fed, we didn't discuss what we just heard. We went on about our day. I get this call from my mom, " Are you busy? I want to include you in my bible study I think we both could use it." I said, "sure." I lock myself in our room, and we go through the study it's title "Overcoming worry" Philippians 4:4-7. You begin the study by drawing a heartbreaking it into 4 equal parts, then enter in your 4 significant stresses or anxiety issues. I'm sitting here thinking . "okay his is weird." So instead of boring you with all the details, I will highlight some key things that stuck out.
- Paul wouldn't have been joyful if filled with worry or anxiety. Paul's confidence was in God's power. When your confidence is in people or of the world, you have reason to worry, but if you stay confident in the God's power and allow him to work in our lives, His comforting presence will give you peace.
- God's working in me!
- In this trial God's working in me, changing me for his good purpose, to draw me closer to Him!
- God wants us and those we love to grow!
- The flesh is the old nature that cries out to us and to do things in our own way. God knows what we need. We need to "Stop, lift up Prayer, Trust."
- Rejoice daily knowing God's in control!
There are always going to be things that worry us or give us anxiety, Its easier said then done to give it up and Trust in he Lord. You can always find peace and affirmation in he Word of God, and through family and friends. As I said in he beginning, learning or growth comes in cycles do not be hard on yourself when you don't see any changes. God knows he is the Master of change!
Here is the attachment of the two sermons you should listen to if your going through something that has you worried or given you anxiety. The two titles are: "Strong enough for you biggest anxieties" and "Introduction to the Exodus"
http://www.kingschurch.us/media.php?pageID=24
Happy listening!
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